I'll Move On Baby, Just Like You...

I don't feel like writing.

It's new years, but I'm sick and don't feel like taking the energy to think.

but I will, of course. It's mandatory, in my mind anyways.

I wish I could go back and remember all the things that have happened to me this year, all the things that have changed, but I honestly would have no idea where to start. My world has flipped upside down;

new friendships have replaced the old,

new horse and barn,

new coach and then new coach again [and again],

new relationships within my family,

new clothes,

new confidence,

new opinion,

new knowledge.

I've been happy, sad, worried, nervous, anxious, loud, silent, reflective, oblivious. I've fallen in love with new music, new horses, new friends, and new boys. Everything has changed, but everything is still the same. I'll remember yesterday for what it was; a stepping stone on my way to today. I'll look back and laugh at the silly, funny, stupid things I did in 2010 and laugh because it happened, and it is a part of me. I'll smile, because I know that no matter what happens in 2011 I have my family, the whole thing, behind me every step of the way. I'll reach goals because losing is not something I like to do. I'll move forward, live lightly, love passionately, trust few but with much, smile often. Laugh. Live. Love. Learn. Spend. Smile. Travel.

Goodbye my wonderful, eventful, exhilarating, lovely 2010.

Hello my beautiful, mysterious, exciting, fresh start.

Nice to see you 2011.

I've been waiting for you a while.

- xx, Kelly.