You Were Out Breaking My Heart For Me...

So I know I haven't written in a while, life has been crazy. I was at a competition all weekend [which didn't really go as planned] and before that I was working / preparing for the competition. Today we're going up to the cottage for the rest of the week [ and I'm coming home early to work] and then it's another week.

About a week ago I had a dream about someone from a while ago. I don't know why, but clearly my brain wanted to remind me that he is back. And by that I mean back in the city. Thumper, of course, was the one taking up space in my head. The only part of the dream I remember is him saying he was sorry, and asking if I forgave him, and I replied, "Yeah, I forgive you, but that doesn't mean I have to like you, does it?" Hmmm, apparently I'm quite sassy in my dreams. Who knew?

- xx, Kelly.

#38 find a quiet place, maybe in the country, and watch the stars with her

You Don't Know What You're Going To Lose...

Yet another day of studying - or should I say attempting..

I know I haven't said much about him lately, but I still see Team Canada every once and a while. He is good friends with Caleigh so even when I don't see him, I hear about what he is up to. The reason I bring it up, is because today I was watching TV and came across the World Cup Super G [ski racing]. A Canadian was going, and I though the downhill suit looked a lot like TC's. I did a bit of facebook creeping, and I realized - his profile picture is of him leaving the gate racing at the World Cup! The guy I had been watching wasn't him, but he had been doing the same thing a few days earlier.

Why is it that I can find the guys with all the talent in the world [Team Canada, Thumper, etc.] but it never works out. Thumper now lives on the other side of the country [and remember - he seems to have "forgotten" who I am..] and Team Canada is either in a different country or partying with Caleigh [which most of the time would be a plus, but not in this situation]

I guess you can't always get what you want...

- xx, Kelly.

Take Me With You, I Start To Miss You...

Home.

It was heelllllll getting here - from beginning to end it has been disaster after disaster.

On Tuesday after we left the airport [after breaking one of the airport's doors with a ski bag, hahaha] we all piled into the truck and took off. About 20 minutes into our trip one of the ski bags fell off the roof and onto the highway. We turned around to go back and pick it up and as we were coming up to the spot it had dropped [going the other direction, of course] Jessie spotted a white pick up driving away with our purple ski bag sticking out the back. We called the cops and explained what had happened, and about 15 minutes after the phone call had been made the bag was returned. Natalie was freaking out the whole time - worried that her new racing skis had been in the bag and were damaged when it fell. She was lucky - her skis were in the other bag but of course, I have horrible luck and mine were in the bag that had fallen off the roof, greeeeaat..

Wednesday Natalie, Caleigh, Jessie and I all went out skiing together, which was fun. Jessie and Natalie had both been skiing the whole week before and were adjusted to it so I stuck with Caleigh for the most part. Thursday Natalie and I went out together and had Near-Death-Experience-#87410. Seriously, we do such stupid things when left alone. We went up to the top of the mountain again except this time instead of the black diamond we took the double black diamond, which included a massive bowl [for those of you who don't ski, a bowl is basically a huge indent in the hill. Kind of like a crater] The top half of the run was fine, until we got into the bowl. We stopped in order to organize our self before realizing that we couldn't see the base of the run - it was almost directly below us. After a few If-I-Die-I-Love-You-s, we got a few quick turns in a then managed our way out of the bowl and back onto the regular hill. Thursday was also New Years Eve, which was fun. Natalie, Jessie, Caleigh and I went out to the lodge at the base of the mountain and checked out what was happening there. On our way back later on that night we crossed paths with a few guys about the same age as Caleigh, Natalie and I. We stayed and talked to them for a bit - the usual, until none of us could feel our legs anymore and we had to go.

[We are going to skip over Friday, it was the same as tuesday]

Yesterday/Saturday was another 13 hour travel day starting at 7:30am. We got to the airport around 11:30 and found out Air Canada had messed up our tickets and had us booked on the Sunday flight. After a half hour of panic they concluded that there were seats for us on the plane, except not everyone could go. Natalie and Jessie had to go so Caleigh and I were going to stay behind.

Then only one person had to stay behind.

Then two had to stay behind.

Then back to one.

And then there were enough seats for all of us.

In the end we all got on the flight except our luggage didn't make it. Caleigh and I had some things with us as we took some stuff out of our bags when we thought we were staying but Natalie and Jessie were on their way to a race [skiing] without skis, poles, helmets or gloves sunday morning.

Like I said, it was hell getting home, but we got here.

Moving on, today I saw Cassie which was sooo nice, and I'm now procrastinating. I have a major essay due tomorrow, which I haven't started writing yet. I'm hoping that writing here will get me into a good mindset for essay writing [highly unlikely, but whatever..]

One last thing, something that is really bothering me right now is that Caleigh talks about Thumper a lot, and now I'm back stuck thinking about him. It's sooo bad, I know, but how do I help it? GOD - is it in human nature to ALWAYS want what we can't have? Because we're never happy with what we've got.

- xx, Kelly.

I Want To Dance On Your Body The Way I Shake It On Stage...

The title of this post makes me sound like a stripper - its lyrics from Don't Talk to Strangers by Hedley, nooo worries.

I am officially out west (in BC) skiing in the Rockies with Natalie, Jessie and Caleigh. Nat and I ditched the fam today and went on our own little adventure. I have to say, from now on I'm following her - I decided we should go down this nice little path which later turned into a death trap. The hill was so steep that we couldn't see the base, and there were bowls on either side of us. Did I mention the avalanche warning? Haha, we're okay and it was a lot of fun but I'm done with leading for the rest of this trip.

Thumper, thumper, thumper. Oooh booy. Why does he keep reappearing? He goes to school out here in BC for God's sake! He was back home for the holidays and Caleigh saw him at a party, and apparently he has gotten even better looking and by 2012 could potentially be playing Rugby in the big leagues. Good thing kelly can find the boy with all the potential and loooooooose him. Uggh. Anyways, the part that made me laugh is that she brought me up when she was talking to him and guess what!? He pretended not to know me. Instead he went bright red and asked who "Kelly" was. What a jerk. Lovely, right? Whatever after hearing that he is deeeeeffinitely not worth it, no matter how good he is at rugby.

On another note, I've been talking to Tiffany a bunch more and Chicago is up visiting her for New Years! Hahaha, she was saying that her dad keeps asking him if "my bed" [the guest room is the 'Kelly' room] is comfy, and if he needs me to fly down to fill in the extra space. I love that family. I was talking to Tiff's dad earlier today and he said that she was really sick, succcksss.

- xx, Kelly.

How Do We Inspire Greatness, When Nothing Else Will Do?...

Eight days. Eight days, Eight days, Eight days.

Eight days of, "Wish the internet was working..", "I should write, but.." and "I'm too tired, I'll do it tomorrow.." s. Oooppsss...

Well...

Wednesday I saw Penelope and Cassie, again. I feel like I tell you about them both a lot, but its really because they are both such funny girls! Penelope is amazing, and I don't know what I would do without Cassie. Thursday and Friday, Natalie, Jessie, Caleigh and I were at the funeral. I have to say, it still doesn't feel real. Then friday night after everything I went up north and met Mac, and Cassie. Kristie couldn't make it, because she too had a funeral to attend, but it was still lots of fun. Saturday, and Sunday were a blast - Mac was only there on Saturday, but Cassie, another girl and I made up for the loss of people! I got home sunday night and crashed. Monday I had a major headache/migraine so I had to stay home. I have to say, migraines are the worst. You can't even sit up without cringing in pain.

Today was good to be back at school, and even better to see everyone again. I don't write as much about the girls from school as I'd like to, but I seem to be busy busy busy with all the sports that I have no time. Tomorrow I'll hopefully be going shopping with Kelsey, Kristine, Chloe, Darcy and Sarah, so I'll have stories for you there!

Now, I have to say, the boy situation isn't all that thrilling at the moment. Team Canada is no longer an option [thank youu Thumper... ughh.], Thumper is still in BC [which could stir something up when he is home for christmas..] , Chicago is M.I.A., Nobody remains a nobody, and the one possible new 'thing' isn't worth reporting. Yet...

- xx, Kelly.

When You Say That It's Going To Be, It Always Turns Out To Be a Different Way...

I felt like I should be covering what happened all week - then I remembered that I did nothing but work until thursday. Thursday after school I went over to Chloe's house, and of course, slept over. When we were driving back to her house after going out that night we hit a huggggeeee amount of fog. So scary. I have to say, being outside of the city is nice, but in these conditions the lack of street lights, and lack of practically anything that can show you where the road is in front of you is really unfortunate. Anyways, friday morning we woke up really late, and I missed my physio appointment, so instead, I went to the bank and took out some cash, got a bit of food, and went to see Cassie. That was fun, a pretty calm (but late) night. Saturday night I saw Emmie, Belle and Angel for Angel's birthday! We went out with a few other girls for dinner, and then saw New Moon afterwards.

I have to say - I'm not a huge Twilight fan. I haven't read the books, didn't really watch the first movie, but Taylor Lautner has an amazing body. If God loves me and I marry someone with that kind of a body I don't think I'll be able to take my hand off of him. PDA here we come! haha.

Today (sunday) I stayed in and worked. I had so much to do and I haven't even gotten through half of it. So stressful. Only 25 or so days until Christmas break! I talked to Kristie in my attempt to procrastinate and avoid working. We have the weirdest conversations, haha, but for the past little while we've been talking about the new hottie shes got her eye on. He is a personal trainer - aka. FIT. Ooooh dear. If they end up together I'll be so happy - he sounds awsome. Plus she needs a decent guy, shes such a sweet heart and I love her to peices. She more than deserves a nice guy who treats her amazingly, AND is this fit.

Aaaah - I'm dying. Between seeing Taylor Lautner's gorgeous muscular body and this guy in my head I wish there was something for me. Aaah, oh well. At this rate I'll be eternally single.

Oh yes, and on that note I actually have been doing very little facebook creeping (thanks to the amount of work we've been getting) but I broke this nice trend today when creeping Thumper. I feel so pathetic, but seeing new moon made me miss him, even all the shitty feelings that came along with it. Ugh, ohh dear - why are girls so pathetic? I mean, we rely on guys for our happiness and are too much of romantics for our own good. Do you think a guy would ever be writing something like this? Heeeelllll no.

- xx, Kelly.

I Only Have Myself To Blame For Falling For Your Stupid Games...

I was debating writing last night, but I decided that I'd wait until tonight so I'd have more for you.

Last night I talked to Caleigh about what she did for halloween. She was telling me about how all these bitchy girl are spreading rumors about her and Team Canada hooking up, after he broke up with one of her really good friends a month or two ago. She's not.. and it sounds like it really sucks. I can't imagine if my really close friends started telling everyone I was hooking up with a good guy friend, just because we hang out? It's not right.

Anyways, one of her other guy friends was Thumper for halloween! Haha, here is how their conversation went:

Caleigh: Who are you dressed as?

Boy: Thumper!

Caleigh: Haha, thats clever. Hey I should get Kelly to come, she would complete the costume!

Boy: Naah, Thumper would be pisssseeeddd [hmm?, I'm liking the sound of this! haha]

Caliegh: Why, doesn't he have a girl?

Boy: Naah, they're done. I think its because he's stuck on your sister..

I have to say, this made me really happy. 1. I love that he hasn't gotten over me [yeah, shallow or whatever, its fine], 2. I'm still not over him, so if it was one-sided that would suck. And, 3. that he has obviously talked about me, or else why would his friend know that it would make him mad?

LOVE IT.

I was talking to Penelope about this yesterday - basically about how I don't really want him back, because he had a chance and faillleeedddd. But then again, it would take about 2 words. FML - why are girls so pathetic when it comes to guys? Don't deny it - we ALL do this.

On another note, one of my good friends likes this guy, and I heard from Lindsay that he's hooking up with her [Lindsay's] friend. I don't know what to say.. and if I should say anything?

-xx, Kelly

{Song Title: Undo It - Carrie Underwood}

Don't Say You Can't Live Without Me, You Don't Know A Thing About Me...

Its 100% official - Thumper has a girlfriend. Not that it really changes anything. According to Team Canada she's pretty, but he's only seen pictures on Facebook. I probably wont see him until June or July if I see him at all, and they most likely wont be together by then, especially when they both leave boarding school for 3 months. Hopefully he'll still be taken, then I don't have to worry about things with him. Or, people just don't have to know about it.. (Joking!)

Hey, heres a crazy though - maybe I'll be taken by then? Haha, doubt it!

Caleigh and I went shopping today. I bought a new pea coat! I've been needing a new jacket, seeing as the one I was wearing was over 2 years old, and 1. I've grown, and 2. I have really long arms, so the sleeves are waaaay too short. Attractive, right? Anyways, I'm very happy with my new jacket, I think I'll wear it tomorrow.

While we were walking down the street between stores, Caleigh and I were talking about how she was going to meet up with Team Canada afterwards. Right after we finished talking about him, we walked past his two sisters - one a year older than Caleigh, and one my age. Did I mention that Team Canada's little sister is my age? Well, anyways, Caleigh was telling me how she had been talking to him and his sister was convinced that he was wheeling her. So he told her "No, actually I'm wheeling her step-sister thats your age.." I'm sure that shut her up pretty quickly.

Tiffany reminded me of the story from yesterday (that I wanted to tell you, but I couldn't remember how it went? Yeah, that one)! Anyways, heres what happened with Chicago:

So basically Tiffany was texting him, and he was still asking about me, which she was making fun of him for, of course. (I personally really enjoy that he still asks about me on a regular basis) Then instead of replying to her question she got a text saying "Hey baby". (which if you think about your older guy cousin sending you that is a little bit weird) Turns out Chicago's friend had taken his phone and sent it after he saw a picture of Tiff. I think we need to figure out who this boy is.

Ooh, I almost forgot - another piece of Team Canada information. I was talking to Caleigh about all of this after she got back from meeting up with him, and she said that he kept asking about me. One of the things he said (which might ring a bell if you've read the last few posts) was:

Team Canada: Oooh, I saw Kelly last week! I wasn't sure if it was her at first, and she was with a friend (Larissa) so I didn't say anything..

Caleigh: Haha, she mentioned that actually, thats funny.

Team Canada: Yeah, I was going to run back and talk to her, but I didn't.

Caleigh: Good. You would have looked like the biggest tool ever.

Haha, I wish Team Canada had come back and talked to me, I'm pretty sure he was high, so that could have been interesting.

Natalie and I went for another one of our late-night-walks tonight. She broke her toe, so she biked and I walked beside her. About half way through our loop I noticed a guy walking a bit behind us that I hadn't seen before. I kept tabs on him and he followed us pretty much all the way home. Creepy.

- xx, Kelly

I'm Laughing Because The Loon Call Wasn't A Loon at All, It Was You...

Ugh - GO LISTEN TO: So True - Peirson Ross.

It makes me want to cry, it's so cute, and it reminds me so much of the summer!

Today was the usual (boring..) school day. The guys had a football game which they left early for, so there was nothing to look at in class (although, even when they are there, there isn't anything to look at..) haha.

NEW CHARACTERS!

Larissa - we've been friends for at least a year, shes so funny and even though we only talk at random hours, we have way too much fun.

Team Canada - new boy (the one that I mention 2 posts or so back, Thumper's best friend) funny guy, amazing athlete - which is where his name comes from

SO, today I was on my way home (walking with Larissa) and guess who I run into? None other than Team Canada. We were walking down the road, and he jay-walked with a friend, so he ended up right in front of us - facing us. It took me a second to realize who he was (and we just happened to be talking about Thumper - AWKS) and when I did, I didn't know how to talk anymore. I walk, totally silent with Larissa trying to figure out what happened and why this guy was staring at me, and then turning around and checking me out. What is with this? Coincidence?

As much as I want to get over him, I can't stop thinking about Thumper! He keeps getting better looking (which is totally annoying) and I think I mentioned that he still wanted to see me when he was here over the weekend. I'm dying! I'm a total hypocrite, I keep telling Mac that she needs to stop thinking about her ex, (although, nothing even officially ended between us, it just ended because neither of us texted the other) but I can't stop! The fact that he lives on the other side of the country isn't helping. Although, the fact that his new girl is ugly does! Haha.

Had a good 'chat' with Reea today! Haven't actually talked to her in sooo long. I saw her brother (while he was skipping) the other day, so we talked about that, and about her situation with Derek. The usual, but it was nice!

- xx, Kelly

A Blue Eyed Snake...

Soooo, I meant to write, BUT (and this is a BIG but..) I haven't really been on the computer much. Again, lame excuses, but it's the inconvenient truth.

I'll do a re-cap, the same way I did in my last post:

The weekend went by pretty quickly, I sent Vikki multiple texts, and called her cell a few times but there was no answer. By monday, I was wondering what had happened to her. I knew that she had supposedly given Nobody the boot, but after not hearing a word from her for a few day, I wasn't so sure.

On tuesday night, I got a friend request from one of Caliegh's closest guy friends (on facebook). I accepted his request, and went into Caleigh's room to ask her what was going on. When I walked into her room, she looked up (knowing why I was there) and started to laugh. Turns out they were having a nice conversation about me, and how 'Fit' he thinks I am. Hahaha, as luck would have it, he happens to be one of Thumper's best friends, and was there when I first met Thumper. Just to add to this "luck", Thumper was coming back to the city this weekend, and staying at this guy's house for 2 of the 3 nights.

This whole time I still hadn't heard a word from Vikki.

So, wednesday night I called her again, and her sister picked up. I talked to Vikki (FINALLY) and everything I had been worried about was 100% true. Not only was she still hooking-up with Nobody, she didn't know how to tell me, so she just ignored all my texts. Her excuse was "I was really busy..." I laughed, and replied "So you're too busy to send me even a one word text, but you can make-out with Nobody behind the school when no one is looking? HAHA. Right." We talked a little longer, which was totally useless. She wasn't going to listen, and it was just making me mad. She told me she was going over to his house on thursday. I told her if she went, that she shouldn't call/text me anytime soon, because I wont want to hear from her.

Thursday, I got a call from Vikki. She hadn't gone, but was still dealing with Nobody. I'm not going to bore you with details, but basically I told her she was going to get rid of him, or I wasn't sticking around. Yes, I know that its mean, and some would say unnecessary. But I have a good enough reason to hate this guy that I couldn't care less.

She called again late friday night after the football game. She said she was sorry, and told me about how she got rid of him:

Vikki: I went up to Nobody before the game, and he tried to give me a hug. I pushed him away and said "Um, No. I think this is over." He started to look mad, so I skipped off and let the other guys on the football team (who had all been standing there) laugh at him.

Kelly: Haha, you would do it in front of a group of guys...

Vikki: Yep! And then after the game I went out to dinner with ..... and Nobody watched us leave, if I had noticed he was watching I would have started making out with ..... right there!

Kelly: Please, make sure you do that sometime.

Needless to say, we're back to being friends without stupid boy (Nobody) drama.

Lastly, saturday, sunday and today/monday were pretty calm days. Did the whole, family-thanksgiving-dinner-thing with Lindsay, her boyfriend, Chris and the rest of the fam. Went up to the farm for sunday night. Its funny that its called a farm where there are no animals on it.. anyways, that was pretty much it.

I WILL write at LEAST twice this week. I think I owe you at least that much.

xx, Kelly.

The Truth Hurts...

Went out with Kristie today! We saw Ugly Truth with Gerard Butler (hes sooo gorgeous) and Katherine Heigl. Some people love watching the romantic comedies, but I find that it makes me feel ever worse about the fact that I'm perpetually single, and that when a decent guy does come along, theres always a complication. (ie. hes moving, I'm moving, we live in different cities.. even different countries!) Bad luck? Maybe.

I also saw one of the girls I met in Ireland this week, we hung out - the usual. It was her last night in the city before leaving for a cottage, so we obviously had to make it worth her while.

Going to visit Tiffany tomorrow! That should be fun, I haven't seen her in a few months. Lets keep our fingers crossed that there are some cute boys in her new neighbourhood!

An update on Thumper: haven't talked to him in around two weeks, and I am officially done with him, sadly. He is moving in a few weeks, and wont be back in the city until christmas. To be honest, I've always wondered if her actually likes me...

- xx, Kelly

It's In My Blood...

Well, my latest adventure took Kristie and I on a 7 hour plane ride to Ireland. We flew to Dublin, then drove 2 hours to where we would be staying - GORGEOUS. I think Ireland is in my blood, because coming home was torture! As a future note to anyone traveling to Ireland - a week is NOT long enough. Kristie and I were only there for a week, and so we are already planning our next year's trip!

We visited different sights, the usual tourism, met a few 'P.S. I Love You' boys, and mostly just enjoyed! Made some new friends - Canadian, British, German, and Irish, of course! 

Seeing as I haven't written for a bit, heres what happened since the previous post:

I hung out with Thumper and Kristen again, but guess what!? Nothing happened! Not that its surprising, but its okay, he was fun, and it was cute while it lasted!

Finally got to see Belle and Marc! GOD had I missed them! We walked in the rain for a few hours, the usual Ice Cream run , then went our seperate ways. 

The rest of the time, I was at the cottage or packing for Ireland, and shopping shopping shopping!

- xx, Kelly

If He Doesn't Call, Hes Not Going To ...

I spent the majority of my monday night with Lindsay, Kristen and another friend playing Kings, drinking Martinis and waiting for Thumper to show up. When he did join us, we switched from Kings to Never Have I Ever. One of Kristen's was the obvious "never have I ever had sex." Slowly Lindsay, her friend and Thumper all pick up their glasses. 

What was I wondering? Who Thumper had had sex with, of course. It turns out, he lost it to a girl that I have known for about 4 years, and avoid at all costs. She used to be one of Lindsay's best friends, but with her track record, I'm not surprised that didn't last long. 

Moving backwards, I first met Thumper when my parents were out of town, leaving Caleigh, Natalie and I alone in the house. Caleigh invited a bunch of people over, and thats when Thumper and I started talking. I saw him at a few other jams, but nothing happened. 

- xx, Kelly

The Last Bit of Catch-Up...

Here is a little summary to catch you up on the past month or so - 

June - school ends, exams are over - thank god. Stayed in the city for a few weeks, saw Belle and Emmie, and then left on my way to my favorite part of the world.

July - spent the first week and a bit in Europe with Lindsay, traveling through a few different countries, then headed home. Went out with Caleigh a few times, saw Thumper. Caught up with Emmie and Angel after being away for so long. 

That pretty much brings you up to date, though it is very vague. Once things become more recent, you'll find more detail.

- xx, Kelly