You Said Speak Now...

I want to believe,

you when you say everything is okay.

I want to believe that I'm not losing control. Things aren't slipping just out of my reach more and more often. I want to believe I can see where I'm headed. That everything is working out "as planned". But who plans this? Who plans for chaos and anger and hurt and confusion and every emotion squeezed into a ball that bounces around my heart making it harder and harder to breathe?

I want to believe that everything happens for a reason. Every person who enters and exits my life is there and is gone for a reason. I want to believe people tell the truth more often than they lie. I want to believe in the good in other people, in the strength within, and the human ability to be compassionate. Because without it all, where would we be? Who wants to see the devil in everyone, the weakness, the hate?

I want to believe the world isn't entering a downward moral spiral. A silent, or vocal war is not right, everything we fight for and against isn't going away; dig deep in your heart and think for yourself. What do you really feel, and can you live with your decisions? I want to believe that human actions are moral more times than they are not. The human condition, hopefully, is a light at the end of the tunnel, rather than a dead end.

I want to believe that 1 person can make all the difference. One child can end world hunger, one doctor can cure cancer, one smile can save a life. I want to believe the citizens of the world realize how life is sacred. You are irreplaceable - no one can take your place, everything we do effects someone, and hopefully we're aware of these implications. Hopefully we make the right decisions and save lives rather than destroy them.

I want to believe everything is going to be okay.

Because in a world this beautiful, it would really be a shame to throw it all away.

- xx, Kelly.