In the beginning I missed you so much. It had been a year in which I can remember sleeping in your bed, in your arms, more often than my own. It was comfortable, it was easy, and it felt right.
You were good to me even when I was less than perfect. I struggled with things beyond your control, with issues I couldn't just forget about. And even though you said I should just move on, forget and be happy, I couldn't. That was okay though. You stayed and made me smile, made me laugh and held me tight.
All those silly little things you did for me, the little notes and messages, the photos that would appear, the CDs I would find hidden days later… these things showed a side of you I hadn't known, a side I loved to see. The creativity and sneaky nature of your little gifts was my favourite part. I still keep these things, the notes, and specifically the message you wrote me on my phone - one of the many late nights you stayed with me until I could fall asleep.
You are an extremely special and talented person, and I'm so grateful I got to know you the way I did. You are talented, smart, and stubborn. I wont ever forget the nights we sat talking about things for no reason other than to hear each others voices. The songs you played for me and how you encouraged me to sing. Something I love to do, but hate to be heard doing. Your patience and ability to listen and truly not judge is amazing.
And though I could never ask for a better way to have spent that year, I am happy to see you moving on.
We were right for each other for the time in our lives, but it was not meant to be forever. We lead very different lives, with different goals and conflicting opinions.
I want you to be happy and I realize I can't be the one there by your side when you do what you need to, to accomplish this. I know I can't offer you everything you need and that someone else, another very lucky girl, will be able to. It isn't easy, but nothing in life is. You will find the girl who compliments you, who loves you and understands you and makes you smile in ways I never could. And that is okay.
I'm excited for you. Because I know you feel the same way for me. We were not meant to be together for any longer than we were. But that doesn't mean it wasn't worth it.
Thank you for everything you taught me, for helping me see what I can be and for surprising me the way you did.
Whomever I end up with will be very different from you, but I hope they share some similar traits. I hope they are witty, driven, intelligent, passionate, and are able to surprise me and make me laugh like you could. I hope they can handle spending as much time in my company as you could, and that they keep me on my toes. Because even though I get bored easily, you did a good job of keeping me alert and catching me when I least expected it.
Thank you my dear. You have been and will continue to be one of my best friends.
- xx, K.
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