I'll Leave My Window Open...

Because people exhaust me. The drama, the lies, the conflict. Because work exhausts me. Because everything pushes against you. It's like gravity. You're brought down to earth in the highest of times. When you think you've got it figured out. That you finally got it right and that you're truly happy. That's when this undeniable gravity comes back to haunt you.

You see, I've made my mistakes. We all know that, and I'm not alone. You hook up with boys that are bad news, you run because it feels really really good, you play with boys hearts, and boys play with yours. You cry, you laugh, you are invincible, you are destructive, you are destroyed.

I'm tired of playing games.

I'm tired of chasing fleeting images.

I'm tired of crying.

I'm tired of falling.

I'm tired of losing.

I'm tired of waiting.

So would that boy who, and I'm not asking for forever,

will treat me like something special

something worth ditching the boys for

someone exceptional

please walk in soon?

I'm not asking for a long stay.. just a visit is fine with me.

I'm just curious. And confused about whether you exist or not.

I'm tired of being confused.

- xx, Kelly.