I Recognize The Way You Feel...

You're lovely. I can't help but smile when i see your face, no matter how much I want to hit you and call you names and push you out the door and hit you with it on your way out. Sitting with you at night - in the dark, under a blanket, under the stars - makes my heart race no matter how much I try to stop it. The safety of your hand on my back guiding me when I'm unsure, that little squeeze you give my hand when you can feel that I'm scared. The warmth of your breath on the back of my neck, of your smile, of your embrace.

You're lovely. I can't help but pray that I don't fall in love with you. Because you see, you're toxic. You've entered my mind and I can't get you out. You're lovely. And that's the problem. Because you see, I'm falling for you. And in this game we call life, the first who falls loses.

I don't want to lose. And I sure as hell don't want to lose you.

- xx, Kelly.