I hate people who tell me what I can and cannot do. I hate people that are only capable of talking about themselves and have no compassion when it finally becomes your turn to speak. I hate people who talk about everyone else, unable to hold back when they want to add a rude comment to a conversation about a person. I hate being the victim of gossip, I hate making decisions I regret, and sometimes I hate that I'm open with my opinions. I hate the teachers that expect students to be robots. I hate mornings like this morning when you wake up and a weight presses down on your chest making it all so much more difficult to keep breathing. I hate these mornings because all you want to do is go back to sleep, not because you're tired, but simply for the reason that you don't want to face everything you're feeling. When you wake up and you realize that you can't hide from all these silly boys and girls. When you wake up and you realize, today is just another day in this never ending cycle of wakeup-school-homework-sleep and repeat. This is high school.
I would like to tell those teachers who tell me I can't that actually, I can thank you. Those who can only talk about themselves to stop because their insecurity which is talking isn't helping their case. Those that pick on people to shut the fuck up and worry about what actually concerns them, not everyone around them. And dear god, why are we not supposed to break down, show emotion, be human? This is how we were created isn't it? So why do we try and pretend we're something else? Those mornings wouldn't really be a problem then, everything would be much more manageable.
High school seems to only tell me that I can't.
Thank you. Actually, I can.
- xx, Kelly.
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