Praying On A Darkened Angel...

I swear, it wont hurt..

- xx, Kelly.

Don't Fall, Just Be Who You Are...

- xx, Kelly.

I Want To Be All You Need...

And I don't think we ever will be.

No matter the circumstances,

no matter the obstacles.

I'd miss this to much.

- xx, Kelly.

Forever Young...

We're young.

We don't need a boy to love, hold and kiss.

We wont always be able to relax and be kids, but we'll always be able to love.

So I'm going to get out there and live it up in this world, leave my mark, make a difference, because in five years we will want to rewind, but we can't.

So stop worrying about that boy, now is the time of your life. Lets make mistakes and not care, and memories that will never fade.

Live it up.

Live it crazy.

You're only young once.

Lets screw this up right.

I found that on a girl's facebook profile.

I loved it.

Make mistakes while you can. Live while you are free. Figure out who you are, hold on to that. give in to peer pressure, realize what you really want and go with it. Be happy with your image. Love sleeping alone. Cherish the friends you hold close to your heart. Tell them you love them.

Love you girls. You make me laugh, smile, silly, serious, scared, excited, anxious, and above all, you make me, me.

- xx, Kelly.

Steal My Sunshine...

We want more or less. Doesn't matter what it is, who, how or when. More sleep, more time, more money, more power, more attention, more space. Less stress, less homework, less attention, fewer failures, fewer obligations, fewer demands. No matter how amazing our lives turn out to be, no matter how perfect our families are or how nice our nighbourhood is, we aren't satisfied. We want what others have, we abuse and misuse what we've got, we whine and complain and dream of a "better" life. You live in a mansion? The neighbour's is bigger. Your family is happy? Could be happier. You're beautiful? Not compared to the top models.

No one is perfect, no life is without problems - these challenges and the decisions we make build character.

You are who you are. Accept it. Your house is lovely, you are beautiful, you are happy, you are wonderful. Decide for yourself that you are going to be all these things; love others, love yourself. Be happy with who you are and what you have.

No one can take away what is within, no one can take your happiness if it is immaterial.

- xx, Kelly.

Take My Hand, We'll Walk Forever...

Valentine's Day. I've never experienced a valentines day with a boyfriend, or even something remotely comparable to a boy that's mine. I've never had the cards or the kisses or the suprises or presents or fancy dinners. But, this year, I had the best valentine's day, and I did it without a boyfriend. I went up to the barn and saw my boy, rode with my coach who flew in this week and Chloe came along. We blasted music, ate and sang our hearts out on the drive. I dropped her off at home and right as I was about to head back to my house, who bbms me? Ethan. So we went and sat and talked in a starbucks near his house, which was so so so nice. I love that boy, and I miss seeing him.

I went home and slept in my favourite pajama shirt, one stolen from the boy mentioned above in the summer, and had the best sleep ever.

Haven't written much lately - I've been riding and well all over the place.

I will return though.

- xx, Kelly.

Shortfalls and Little Sins...

I want to go to a place like this. I want to wake up every morning to warmth and a breeze. I want to look out the window and see a breath taking landscape. An incapturable image. I want to wake up well rested and truly happy. Happy enough to smile no matter what happens. To feel love, and give love. To see my horses, and feel free of any real stresses, the ones present only trivial. I want to be happy, I don't need endless wealth. I need a place to live, a purpose, a horse or two, and friends and family to keep me smiling.

- xx, Kelly.

If You See Kay, Tell Her I Love Her...

I'm sitting in my living room listening to needtobreathe (i have both their albums in a playlist and the playlist is on repeat) with my dog lying on the couch asleep with her head on my lap. I had a snow day today (my first real snow day ever) and I'm genuinely happy. Things are looking up, they only thing I kind of regret is texting this one boy first, but whatever. I could've done worse. Maybe, just maybe, something will come of him. But I don't have my hopes up. I've learned I am wholly content without a boy, and just the company of the occasional one i don't care about, and good friends like Ethan and Lola, and Chloe, and Tiffany, and Kelsey, and Darcy, and Sarah, and Emmie, and all of the girls and boys I hold so close to me, including all my sisters and brothers. I love you guys, I love my dear animals, and I love my school for finally closing it's stupid doors for the day thanks to 'inclement weather'. I love all of you, and I love the music I'm listening to for bringing out this strength and happiness.

- xx, Kelly.