Fine Tune...

I'm sitting here, avoiding an essay and waiting until 7 so I can go work out. Everything I should do, ie. write this stupid paper, is so unattractive, and everything I want to do I know I shouldn't. I spent the day bored out of my mind, and now I'm really not wanting to write another word (well… I think this is an exception).

I just want to curl up in a ball with my book and with you.
Thats it.
I want to laugh and smile and read and I want to do it all at a big window because the weather is getting so much nicer. Can you feel spring coming?

Everyone has rough patches, I've had my share of them but as of right now everything is going okay for the most part, and I don't want to sit in the dark or write about books I don't like. I want to enjoy it and I want to just be. Be in the ease of it all.

And then, at 7, I want to go visit my boy. The one, and only one, that I really do love.

- xx, Kelly.

A World Between...

I wonder what people who read this think of me. You may or may not know me, and if you do, well, then the question doesn't really apply. Your opinion are varied and already set. But there are the people that keep popping up on the google stats.. Germany, Poland, England, Russia… all of these people who really do not know who I am.

It picks away at my curiosity.

How you imagine I look, how you might think I spend my time, how I dress, what kind of music and movies do I like? These things that make up me as an individual outside of this outlet. And it's funny, because like with any good book, we have an idea of what the characters should look like. I find, personally, that movies of books ruin this. I find that as soon as someone else puts a face to the name it extinguishes the person I spent all of those hours creating in my mind.

So, here is me wondering what you've created my character to be. Whether you'd get along with her or not, and why.

Feel free to explain, anonymous or not, and as always I love the feedback.

- xx, Kelly. 

Let's Get Out Of This Uptown Life...

Everything in the world as we know it comes down to timing. Did you catch your bus, were you late for school, did you get stopped at a red light, how long do you barbecue the steaks for, when do you have to leave the house? The outcome of these things will forever change the course of your life. It may seem ridiculous, but say you burn your dinner and decide to go out to get something to eat instead, and you end up running into an old friend or making a new one. That one burnt steak has changed everything. We have schedules, sure, but sometimes we just can't get everything right. Sometimes its harder than that to get things to work out at the time they appear to you.

Love is based on timing just as much as anything else. Love is timeless, but the beginning of an "everlasting" love has a small window of opportunity. People fall in and out of love because of exactly this. We lose contact or lose faith because of the time or headspace we are at in our lives. Have you ever heard someone say, "if only I'd met him a year ago..." Or, "if only she'd waited a couple months until I was in a better place..." Timing. And that's what makes good timing so special. There are so many reasons, so many ways for everything to go wrong. So many chances to mess things up, chances to make mistakes. But sometime, someone will find you when you're in a place that will allow a healthy relationship, and their in that same spot too.

This, my dears, is when you know something special has come to be. This is when the timing was right, and I hope the timing of the beat of both your individual drums continue to beat in a complimentary rhythm. Because we all will find this timing, eventually. Patience and a willingness to learn from mistakes and let those relationships that missed their time go will better you for that special case where things were right.

- xx, Kelly.