With A World Between, I See You And Me...

I have a few things to say, I'll try my hardest not to be repetative, and I'll try not to make this painfully lengthy:

My family - I love you, all of you. You're crazy and frustrating and obnoxious and crowded. But I wouldn't replace a single one of you with any other living soul. You have built me and strengthened me and continue to help me find, me. Thank you for the countless shoulders to cry on and for the advice from deep within your hearts. You are truly spectacular people, all of those who I see nearly daily, as well as those of you I don't. We are family and you never cease to amaze me with your compassion and time for myself and one another. 

My girls - you are all beautiful. I wish you could see yourselves the way I see you. You are strong, you are intelligent, you are independant and you are amazing people. You inspire me to be better and to work harder. Take the time to appreciate how amazing you truly are. Because all the doubts you may have are in your head; the mind game that hold you back is baseless. Who cares if you don't look like Miranda Kerr, if you don't sound like Beyonce every note you sing? You have so many things they would kill for, and these are the characteristics that define you.

The rest of you - you all deserve a break, you deserve time spent with family and a time to relax and do things that make memories. These are the days and the stories you'll remember and retell for the rest of your life. It is with these people, family and true friends, that real memories are made. So go, laugh and love and live and spend and travel. Be with those you love and those who love you. Keep your heart open, but don't fool yourself. Free your mind and let your spirit soar. This is a time to cherish and a time to take advantage of - you don't know how many more you'll have with everyone. So knowing this, do nothing you will regret and regret nothing you do.

Merry Christmas.

- xx, Kelly.

Walk With Me...

I'm stressed. There is so much going on and so many things pulling me in all directions. I feel as though if I could only split myself in two.. then maybe, just maybe, I'd be able to get everything done and done well. Christmas is right around the corner and thank God, literally, for that. I need the break, because it wont really be a break, rather it will give me the time during the day to get everything I need to do, done. And so, since my brain is currently completely scrambled, I figured I would post a couple things I've written in my phone over the past year or so that I haven't added on here yet.

A lot of things inspire me. I love driving with someone at night. Each car on the highway is like it's own little constellation under the stars. I love sitting out at the end of the dock silently listening to the creatures around me and watching as millions upon millions of stars sparkle above me. I love the little moments that happen so quickly you could almost miss them, and sometimes do. I love my horse, he keeps me sane. He's a bit of a brat and is a little high-strung, but he knows I am his person, and he is mine. I love late night walks and searching for new routes from one place to another. Discovering back road and little alleys. I love taking the time, and having the time to take, to do all of these things.

- xx, Kelly.

Your Favourite Records Make Me Feel Better...

Sitting on the floor of my 5 degree bedroom, listening to slow, sad music and going numb and cold and calm. Theres something comforting about the silence in my house. About the melody of these songs and about this feeling. I've come to find it's a safe place to be. Quiet and alone. Not really meant to be depressing, rather soothing and almost refreshing. No one to cause any stress, or demand anything of me, or judge me. No one to whisper secrets as soon as I turn my head. I had a lovely weekend. Home away from home. In a place where everyone has a decent head on their shoulders, and believe it or not, the girls are classy and the boys are polite. It's a very different place, these things as well as the dirt roads, the subdivisions, and the family I see only a few times a year.

I've missed you all. I had the nicest weekend with you. Thank you for the escape.

- xx, Kelly.

On Your Own...

The beauty of this world is that it never stands still. Each moment is fleeting, every problem passes, and every day the sun rises and sets again. We each average over 6000 steps in a day. Whether in the right direction or the wrong, we're always moving literally and figuratively. Dwelling on the little things, like what time you went to sleep and what you had for breakfast are interesting, sure, but do these things really matter? No. Because at the end of each day, week, and month we remember the things that stood out. We remember the people and the places and the tasks that meant something, good or bad. Each one of us is in charge of deciding what we feel is important enough to constitute this list. Mine is very different from yours. We all live in our little bubbles, knowing only small pieces of each others' thoughts, actions and situations. And so it becomes important to ask questions, to listen and to keep an open mind. To learn about the people around you, and to respect each person's space and privacy. I think it's just as important, however, to remember that at the end of the day, another person's business is exactly that, and to let things run their course. Because tomorrow things may change. Yesterday is set in stone. The world right now is in the making. And tomorrow is filled with endless possibilities. So why waste today worried about something that happened yesterday, and risk ruining tomorrow, a day with so much potential to be beautiful?

- xx, Kelly.


ps. tightrope - green river ordinance (among many others)